I understand its her way of calming down

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but i want to live

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my dads not dying im fine

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i want to not just be alive but to live

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But i tried to be ankther option for her to judt calm down

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And i couldnt

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but how can I? my memories are so fucked up

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I wasnt enoigj for her

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if he gets sepsis i cant do anything about it

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I tried

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it hurts so much

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Id never kill myself

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ive been planning on dying since i was 9 anyways

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i dont know how I got through all my shit

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But its all i cam think about aftwr she left

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but i just wish u would atleast love me

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i know u dont

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i can see it in ur eyes

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dying before my parents die

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and now my dad hates me too

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even though one of them was assaulting me

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im worth less than that right lol

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its fine

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I feel like i wasnt enough for her

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I cant sleep

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all those bruises that he left when he hit my i still feel them

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I didnt sleep for days and then i passed out

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he said i was worthless

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no hope

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I thought we were forever

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And she left.

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We can still be forever, i think

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Im giving her time

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And space

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he said that i shouldnt kill myself because i will only be a burden because of the bill

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But

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and that a funeral is expensive

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I cant handle not talking to her

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i fucking hate this place

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why is is so unfair

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