I just cant bring myself to be how i usually am

94664 - 

They make fun of it - bela

93694 - 

i hate the fact that subtly try to sexualise myself im scared ill get into the wrong group of people and get sa’d for real but im conflicted on if i want that or not even tho thats messed up asf -c

94829 - 

normally you do not get these feelings?

94815 - 

Yeah bela they seem really shitty, do you have anyone u can go to?🐨

94830 - 

my colour changed tf

94815 - 

I wanna feel emotion the same way i did before

94664 - 

<what

93697 - 

are you talking to me green? -c

94829 - 

Like relatives nearby?🐨

94830 - 

what has changed

94815 - 

Only my best friends - bela

93694 - 

<brb (or maybe not bye just in case)

93697 - 

no but I can talk to you too

94815 - 

Im just too negative

94664 - 

They just so fucking controlling

93694 - 

no its okay green -c

94829 - 

Would they let u like stay with them?🐨

94830 - 

perhaps you are going through a temporary phase

94815 - 

Maybe

94664 - 

how long it has been like this

94815 - 

But like

94664 - 

oh myfucking god oh my fucking god

94832 - 

Idk ill have to ask

93694 - 

am i too much???

94832 - 

is that it??????

94832 - 

A couple years now

94664 - 

i'm such a fucking burden

94832 - 

Youll just have to travel across the country😊🐨

94830 - 

i'm drowning in loneliness

94832 - 

someone talk to me oh ym fucking god

94832 - 

have you tried talking to a professional?

94815 - 

at this point if my ex messaged me i'd fucking reply

94832 - 

Whats going on white

93694 - 

i'm alone

94832 - 

Hugs white

93694 - 

i am absolutely utterly fucking alone.

94832 - 

Ive been going to school counseling for most of my life tbh

94664 - 

sometimes it could be small problems stacked. they might help you with that very easily

94815 - 

i should have stayed a damn people pleaser.

94832 -