is that what they want to see from me? should i have to be 3 steps away from deaths door?

93769 - 

train station is 5 minutes away from my apartment i desperately need a way to die

93769 - 

Whatre your reasons green?

94366 - 

they gave me meds and said go home and fuck it

93769 - 

reasons for what?

93769 - 

why do you want to die

94366 - 

i feel like i need to kill myself before anyone else can

89725 - 

if i were to answer that question, ive been wanting to die since i was 5. im 15 now. theres so much happening, i cant even describe

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ngopi-ngopi duluan pak anwar ibrahim rahmatan lil al hensemi ya

94374 - 

Thats really young

94366 - 

I just wish i could disappear and start afresh somewhere else. I'm hating my graduate degree

94375 - 

school work, arguments with friends, impulsive spending and stupid decisions, mood swings and constant suicidal idealisation. im really sick of dealing with this. on the grand scheme of things, it

93769 - 

doesnt seem like a lot but when it builds up over the span of 10 years it gets fucking tiring

93769 - 

im only hanging on for my boyfriend but that will to live isnt any much stronger

93769 - 

thermal night scope

94374 - 

THERMAL NIGHT SCOPE

94374 - 

LONG RANGE

94374 - 

I see

94366 - 

i called my friend a retard today on accident and now i feel lile i shouldnt have to live ever again

93769 - 

a person like me isnt worthy of respect or love, i do stupid shit and say stupid shit all the time its probably why i cant keep friends

93769 - 

well, it wasnt on accident lol my day was shit but thats not a reason to take it out on him

93769 - 

Thats true

94366 - 

not even days, my weeks have been complete fucking shit

93769 - 

thats called displaced anger

94366 - 

but yknow, mental health is the reason and not an excuse

93769 - 

oh really? ive never heard of that term

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HI

94376 - 

then i mustve been dealing with it this entire time during mood swings

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ANYONE THERE

94376 - 

DELTARUNE YESTERDAY

94376 - 

i want to just give up

89725 - 

Yeah its when you lash out as somebody who has nothing to do with the reason youre angry

94366 - 

i destroy things and belongings that hold meaning to me and regret it after

93769 - 

ohh, ok

93769 - 

yeah, that makes sense

93769 - 

i ended up kicking him and getting physical too

93769 - 

Oh-

94366 - 

yeah it sounds like youre dealing with a lot of negative emotions

94366 - 

of course he had to rub salt in the wound and said any time i got mad i resort to physical violence

93769 - 

honestly my only thought to that is that im just like my mom and dad

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