thats fair but i feel like my diagnosis is taking way too long, ive been in therapy since 5th grade and these symptoms have been here since 4th grade

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only until the last two years i suspected that something was truly wrong with me internally

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ive always known that something was weong with me, even as a young child but i guess i never knew the name for it

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hi

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have they even started prescriibing you medicine yet?

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and this is only the past couple of weeks too. my entire life has been hell

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hello

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wow i m coral today

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they cant prescribe medication until the diagnosis is offical

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i got discharged from the ED several hours ago, they gave me temporary fluoxetine

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Ah

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Well it sounds like youre only just beginning to get help addressing the problem

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i guess, i just wish it wasnt at such an unfortunate time

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This could be the start of something new for you

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and they try to avoid medication for young people anyway. unless its like really bad

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all my exams are piling up soon. im in 10th grade and its the end of the first semester

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i wish they got this shit sorted a year ago or whatever but i guess it was never that serious

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in my experience it was serious ive been experiencing the same things over and over again

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most of the time they say its just hormones and i wouldnt neccesarily disagree

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its easy to get doomery abt upcoming tests yeah

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i wish i was normal

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but i feel like something is wrong internally and mentally. maybe im just a professional at self victimising

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but all you can do is your best. Study well, and youll be doing everything you need to succeed

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i need to go apologise to my friend and im so fucking scared of doing that

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i wish i didnt act out in public and burst down into tears after the fight

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i dont act out in public nowadays

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i contain it to myself most of the time and wait for a space to let it out in

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you shouldnt be afraid to apologise, just prepare for your friend to be hesitant to accept it

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Sounds like a good coping mechanism

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Yeah i agree with blue

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yeah that makes sense. i wouldnt forgive me in a heartbeat anyways

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even worse because its another friends birthday tomorrow

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and the friend i got into a fight with is there

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i really wanna go but idk how its gonna work

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You appreciate your friend right? Even though you called them a name this time, in general you’re fond of them, right?

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i think ill just take my meds tmrw morning and see how i end up feeling

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yeah, hes a good guy deep down. pretty irrational and immature but hes reliable when things get tough

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i just hate approaching people after bad situations like this

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most of the time i get called crazy or neurotic

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theyre not wrong but i wish it wasnt like this

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