ive been thinking about suicide for the past 6 weeks anyways

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i think what really triggered it is that before the 6 weeks i blew $400 dollars in a day on random bullshit i didnt even need

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I think its worse to just let things remain unsolved though

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i wouldnt say its the only reason but one of the factors contributing

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Damn that really is textbook bipolar disorder right there

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😭yeah i had a feeling

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THERMAL NIGHT SCOPE BINOCULAR OR ORDINARY BINOCULAR?

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i feel like i could have diagnosed you at this point lol

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its not the first time as well

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haha i wish it were that easy but theres so many other factors

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yeah

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if it helps ive had anorexia and a self harm addiction in the past, anxiety and depression too but those are the usual

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idk what its looking like for my therapists on the diagnosis side of things

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so its really adding to my stress

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i wouldnt even call it stress at this point because it feels so much worse internally

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maybe i just dont breakdown enough or shout and scteam enough for them to take me serious

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Hii -🦊

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I think I know what you mean

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do i have to record myself breaking things and yelling and bejng destructive

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How are yall? -🦊

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oof haha

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it feels like nobody takes me seriously lol

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hhh yeah thats rough

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I had anger issues at one point in my life but i got over em apparently

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im so pathetic. how i feel or felt has never mattered and trying to act like it does is stupid

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:p -🦊

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Awwh that sucks -🦊

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I hope yall feel better soon-🦊

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i only broke things very rarely though

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my parents are right about me

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Well if youre still there i wish you the best

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im betting once you move out of your parents place as an adult things will get even better for you

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Hope everyone has a better day or week or life

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hey

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bleble

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my eyes hurt

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i want to go to sleep

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hi-n

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helllloo

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hi

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