mapuh keno bedil demo

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I also know its not my fault but that doesnt help much either ultimately nothing does bc the worst still happened

94366 - 

why is it so many guys have the worst perspectives on this too

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or they think its so bad a girl is ruined after and they wont date her

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She should know better but doesn't

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All in all as far as symptoms go theyre pretty minimal? Im not jump or anything

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*jumpy

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I dont have a fear of beds now

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Its just that everything i do there is this underlying feeling in the pit of my stomach

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i dont know what to call it. Anxiety and dread i guess

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I just want to escape my body

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there is no safe soace because my body is the crime scene

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i want to die

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i’ve started hallucinating recently and its torn my life apart

89725 - 

I hate that i have to leave my life so soon i hate it i wanted to do more

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but i cant not like this

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And thats all i have to say

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i’m so paranoid that everyone i speak to is planning to try and kill me

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https://www.youtube.com/shorts/8KbS4Eq-yL0?feature=share

94374 - 

Most people arent murderers thst just owuldnt make for a funcitonal society

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so maybe that can comfort you

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medicine could help you too

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got sent home from the emergency department

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i try to forget it because it’s a stupid thing to worry about but the fear is so overwhelming that i cant talk to someone face to face for more than 10 minutes without making an excuse to leave

89725 - 

need a high success rate and something thats not too bloody

93769 - 

was gonna go down with train or jumping off a building but im not exposing children or workers to graphic shit

93769 - 

i need to die

93769 - 

they let me go because i lied and said i wanted to go home 😝😝😝😝😝

93769 - 

bf came over for a little after but its a bandaid solution now that hes gone i dont see a point in continuing

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i cant eat anything because i have this unshakeable feeling that someone’s poisoned everything i’m going to eat

89725 - 

honestly i have no idea how they let me go lol theyre careless asf i could go back and hang on hospital grounds and they would gaf until 3 hours later

93769 - 

waited all that fucking time for what, i couldnt even get admitted to the wadd

93769 - 

guess im not enough of a victim for them. or im not mentally ill enough

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is that what they want to see from me? should i have to be 3 steps away from deaths door?

93769 - 

train station is 5 minutes away from my apartment i desperately need a way to die

93769 - 

Whatre your reasons green?

94366 - 

they gave me meds and said go home and fuck it

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reasons for what?

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