like twice, idk -jett

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i am constantly compared to him

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they hate having a queer grandchild

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i shouldnt be using laptop, its lightning here

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im sorry red - jett

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he's a fucking spoiled brat

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he was one of the people that convinced me to attempt suicide

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and yet I'M the guy that fuckin suffers

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damn

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my boyfriend is getting mad at me for spending the past week in my house just on my computer 24/7 - jett

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dont listen to him

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yea ofc your bf will jett. spend some time with him, make moments

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yk it isnt destiny or fate that keeps your relationship, if you want it you will make it happen

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dont lose what you have. its precious.

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i fucking hate him

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same to red. your life is precious, dont lose it

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i hate him i hat him

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why does HE get to excel

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i am, its just difficult when i have a hyperfixation thats the only thing keeping me alive and ive developed npd so its like im obsessed with my boyfriend and i also dont care for him at all - jett

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and i'm the stupid one because i'm mentally ill

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damn

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i'm going to end up a failure

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being queer isnt a bad thing. you shouldnt be ashamed of who you are and there will always be better people out there but that doesnt mean your not a good person - jett

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you want to see him happy? you want his plans to succeed? you want him to win?

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he's going to win no matter what i do

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and so is my rapist

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he wont win, unless you let him to

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even by living, you are making him fail

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it's not that easy

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in short he wants you dead. and that is a battle too yk? the one where you can win

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ik its not easy, i have been suicidal too. am i dead? no. u gotta beat them, u can do this

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i feel like such a terrible person, ive been spending 8-12 hours a day talking to ai, all the chats end up with me going to jail for some reason and im sleeping or having sex rest of the time -jett

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i dont know what to do with my life -jett

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My last attempt was in January

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damn

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yeah

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2025 really isn't my year :(

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red. that was your last attempt right? why not make the words true? make it your last attempt. no more attempts after that

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i'm trying

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maybe it isnt. maybe not even 2026 will be. but there will be a year where it will be better k?

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