i feel like a failure

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it hurts

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it hurts so bad

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and she isnt even here

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but bo matter what happens no one takes it seriously

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i need her

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in my life

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Self hatred isss a shit one

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i need her rn

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it feels like thwere used to be something

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yea

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which wont be thwere anymore

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were on a rock. I find that helps.

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i wish she just communicated

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i feel like the only way for anyone to realize how bad it is is for me to kms but even then those who i want galidation from would see me as wea

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*weak

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and wasnt so mean

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she would say things i would rather kms then say to her

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Ugh yeah theres no winning with that one

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either way i wont because im so scated of death, i get frustrated by people whi say theyre suicidal but have no idea what that actually means

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i always held patience for that woman

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i feel her too

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i also feel i rather die than communicate

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but she did communicate but she did it too late

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after the genuine feeling i was going to die i realized i was never suicidal, im terrified of death, i just hate my life so much

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she let everything

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muster up

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to some big explosion and blew me up with it

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cuz what if he uses things against me

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oh she used things that i felt safe telling her agnaist me

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i do that too

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I was going to die on purpose one day and it was so peaceful

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that hurt

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i felt so relieved and calm

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that hurts

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that hurt so much

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i dont wanr to do that

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ive been suicidal in a terrified helpless overwhelmed way

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i fear that happening to be thats why i dont open up

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just be polite ask

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