why did this have to happen

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in my head, we've moved on civilly

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I didn’t want this ..

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can I say a proper goodbye to you?

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Ill never not love my mom🐚

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maybe one day i'll sum up the courage to

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that's all i have to say regarding her for now

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i often think about how i'm unable to extend empathy for myself, especially my child self

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My friends say im kind and understanding and whenever they say they trust me i feel like crying🐚

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I hate lying about myself

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i understand that i was only a child, and that what happened to me wasnt my fault, but I still blame myself

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maybe because I know that i couldve done more

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i couldve kicked, screamed, fought, told someone about it

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I want to leave

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but i didnt, and i dont think that i can ever forgive myself for that

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maybe that's just me being silly and stubborn

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but it feels like i've somehow betrayed myself in not doing more

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I don’t want to be like why

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but how could I have known? again I was only a child

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this*

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but that doesnt mean that i was incompetent

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i knew that it wasnt right

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I think ive started to really heal at least-🐚

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it didnt feel right

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and i did nothing

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Living in a house with my mom-🐚

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i dont understand why i did nothing, or what was going through my head at the time

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but it will never make sense to me

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It made me feel like i was a candle just like dying out-🐚

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Ay blue did someone sexually abuse as a kid

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why did i not do something?

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sadly yes

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U didn’t deserve this

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Struggling with lack of motivation and social media addiction. I've downloaded time management apps and have tried meditation but my dumb addicted brain always finds a way to get past it. I'm so tired

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Sry it had to be this way

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its okay

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hi

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how can i make it up to myself i wonder

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without punishing myself for something that i couldnt even predict

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or how do i feel comfortable in this body

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