When my mom tried to force me out of this house into hers i knew itd only be bad memories with her-🐚

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i dont think there's an answer for that, people just push through and deal with it

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meow

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I'm so sorry yellow :(

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i have to build resilience

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I wish there was a answer blue-🐚

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but im too tired to

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When I was 11 I had my first attempt

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It’s ok white

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and above all i want to forgive myself

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actually i think i will make a start now

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I want my brother to move out. He constantly paints me as the bad guy yet he swears at me and is so aggressive. He swears hes some self aware saint. Shouldve killed himself when he contemplated

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here's to a message to my child self

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i'm sorry that i've been so critical of you

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and that i've blamed you for things that you probably couldnt even process properly

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I write that sort of stuff in my journal-🐚

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That was my fault I remember when i was youngi saw lgbtq content and I still didn’t know what 🏳️‍🌈 at that Time I didn’t ask my mom about it

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im sorry for directing mmy anger at you instead of the people who were responsible

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I have a journal but i haven't written in a while. It feels like the days dont count wgej i dont journal

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I love journaling-🐚

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i was too caught up with trying to find a logical reason as to why those things happened

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I'm always the one being left out and forgottwn

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that i felt like the only logical answer was you being at fault

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but i want to get better and i want to stop blaming you

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If you look at my journals from younger me it always just ended off by me saying some hella pessimistic shit like i want to kill myself 🐚

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the same way how we were all once children, you were a child. and if im able to empathise with other children, then i should be able to empathise with you

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Im so glad ive had this growth-🐚

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so im sorry and i'll try not to blame you anymore

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I still watch +18 stuff

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Maybe no one else sees it but its crazy how my mentality has changed so much-🐚

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moving on without any explanations or apologies is difficult

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Yellow but healing is possible, you can get free from that addiction

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i wanna kms.

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i keep thinking that i need answers

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but maybe i dont

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My journals now can be kinda silly or when i am sad i know its not forever -🐚

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Coral please don't. I know exactly how you feel. You matter honey and you are loved

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somehow i cant accept that though

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I wish I wasn't alive right now..... Light Blue.... I dont think i can do this..

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maybe i'm too forgiving

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