My journals now can be kinda silly or when i am sad i know its not forever -🐚

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Coral please don't. I know exactly how you feel. You matter honey and you are loved

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somehow i cant accept that though

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I wish I wasn't alive right now..... Light Blue.... I dont think i can do this..

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maybe i'm too forgiving

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Yall im like about to launch myself into the nearest river im being so fr - romam

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Im able to rant it out without going straight to contemplating suicide now-🐚

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Coral you can, you are stronger than you think, believe me

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I mean i have my moments but im only human-🐚

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Roman* sorry - roman

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light blue.... honestly... i dont know anymore im literally just say here crying... i...

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i shouldnt want to reconnect with past abusers. that's not maturity thats being a pushover

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Coral, listen, I know how it feels to not want to live anymore, but I promise that it will get better

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No im uhh how do I explain im not addicted i am just not homophobic and basically everyone I know is homophobic which is why i am probably going to end up alone in life

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Reached out to the crisis line, they hung up on me, i called back, got a difgerent counselor who did the same thing when i mentioned it - roman

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after all this time clearly i have still not learnt how to set boundaries

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I am seeing Billie next month... thats the only thing keeping me going right now.... if not for that i dont know.... </3 - to light blue

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You shouldnt be so hard on yourself blue🐚

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You are loved, Coral, very very loved, even I love you and it's really not worth to end it

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if anything its a sign that deep down im still not over everything

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even if i pretend to be

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You went through a lot, its a hard thing to process 🐚

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thanks Light Blue <3

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i need to learn how to move on

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No need to thank me honey, just promise to not do anything stupid, okay?

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and not let these people take up space in my thoughts

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Every thing will be okay coral

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Im literally about to try and kms abd the criss line hangs up on me ffs - roman

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Green please don't

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thanks yellow or brown idek what colour that is ahahahah

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I think you are strong for not staying stuck in the same bad place you were in🐚

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light blue i will stay for you <3

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Brown 😭🐚

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or maybe a part of moving on is getting the closure that i want

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Roman life is a roller coaster it won’t always be bad

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Thank you <3 take good care of yourself and remember that you are always loved

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Like bro are they so fucking fr right now? Im so upset - roma

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i wish iknew you guys... sigh... i dont have anyone irl...

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but it'll be embarrassing if i try to do that and i'm met with hostility

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Me neither coral, I always scare everyone off

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