all i have to do is find the source of my lingering pain and address it

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I dont I could envision a life where my mom plays a big role, i still fear her to an extent-🐚

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Imma fall asleep this is so heavenly 🐨

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but when i fully heal part of childish me wants to tell you

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All it takes is her raising her voice or hand-🐚

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what is, purple?

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and i'd like for you to be proud of me

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The one I suggested, purple? -🐼

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The song green suggested🐨

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and i'd like for us to talk again, like civilised adults

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Ohhh Ikr

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I fall asleep to it

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ADDED TO MY PLAYLIST🐨

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because at the time i was childish and couldnt handle my emotions

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but now i understand

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Good decision

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So very calming 🙃🐨

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there is more to life than just me and my world

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Ill listen to it when i sleep :)🐨

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and i'm sorry for not understanding you then

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Yes and it actually helped me calm down from being suicidal

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Whenever i tell my mom something that might disappoint her i feel sick-🐚

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but if i get the chance again, i'm sure that i could try and understand you now

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Real shell🐨

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Thats good green!🐨

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everything good in the world that i saw i'd associate it with you

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the claim that Israel fired on an aid center was debunked 20 minutes after it was made. if you see a news outlet parroting it, they're lying

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And maybe she has changed because these last couple years she doesnt hit or throw things anymore but maybe its because we are so seperated-🐚

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i remember the time I would eat healthily and look both ways when crossing the road because i wanted to keep myself safe, so that I could live for you

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I dont see her often-🐚

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i wanted to live to see another day because of you

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Im sorry for both blue and shell🐨

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and obviously now I recognise how unhealthy that was

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Although im still a minor but i know im not like a baby-🐚

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Thats how i feel about someone blue🐨

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but i miss feeling as though i had something to live for

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I miss parts of her-🐚

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wanting to wake up to another day so i could see you smile

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hear your voice

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I feel like im living for someone bc they seem like the only one who cafes🐨

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