i used to say that I hated you because i just couldnt fathom how someone i loved so much could hurt me so cruelly

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Any more songs people?🐨

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Im not her-🐚

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it felt like

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i dont know

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I use to be scared id hurt someone like that-🐚

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it felt like laying your heart out bare to the person you love the most and watching as they trample all over it

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yeah that's what it felt like

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but time really does heal

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and i made my mistakes too

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and although you wont tell me, part of me hopes that wherever you are, you think of me fondly too

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I wanted to talk to her but i knew itd make her mad so id just let her hold me and pretend-🐚

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i hope that im not just a bad memory to you

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I will end up alone no one understands me

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and i hope that when you speak of me, if you do, you dont only say bad things

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why did this have to happen

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in my head, we've moved on civilly

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I didn’t want this ..

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can I say a proper goodbye to you?

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Ill never not love my mom🐚

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maybe one day i'll sum up the courage to

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that's all i have to say regarding her for now

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i often think about how i'm unable to extend empathy for myself, especially my child self

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My friends say im kind and understanding and whenever they say they trust me i feel like crying🐚

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I hate lying about myself

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i understand that i was only a child, and that what happened to me wasnt my fault, but I still blame myself

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maybe because I know that i couldve done more

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i couldve kicked, screamed, fought, told someone about it

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I want to leave

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but i didnt, and i dont think that i can ever forgive myself for that

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maybe that's just me being silly and stubborn

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but it feels like i've somehow betrayed myself in not doing more

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I don’t want to be like why

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but how could I have known? again I was only a child

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this*

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but that doesnt mean that i was incompetent

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i knew that it wasnt right

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I think ive started to really heal at least-🐚

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it didnt feel right

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and i did nothing

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