Cyan hi again🐨

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and it makes me wonder what exactly i have to suffer through to finally make the people i love care

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Maybe she really does just want me to be the best so she pushes me-🐚

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Yk what day I'm excited for? The day when I feel my heart slowly beginning to stop beating and sirens coming from afar as I close my eyes

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and i wonder if you know that i still love you despite everything that happened

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and despite how much you hurt me

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Anyone else screen just crash🐨

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But i feel like im being held over a cliff-🐚

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dayum nobody here matches my freak

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i used to think that i'd never be able to forgive my abusers but it seems like this is what forgiveness is

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wouldn't say that yellow, just a lot of individual conversations going on

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Thats my predicament blue-🐚

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Ur real-🐚

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understanding that you were not entirely to blame

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Yes dont speek is a good song

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and i dont hate you for it

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And im sorry that stuff happened to you -🐚

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Present by lloy van is great too, purple

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*lloyd

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i really dont hate you and I want you to know that but i'm scared that you won't care about how i consider you anymore

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gwen stefani/No doubt is just so good

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the bright room by ai aso might also be an interesting listen

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Ok im listen8ng now🐨

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but i think that finding peace within myself is coming to terms with everything

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because even though i feel like i have forgiven you, something in me still aches

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all i have to do is find the source of my lingering pain and address it

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I dont I could envision a life where my mom plays a big role, i still fear her to an extent-🐚

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Imma fall asleep this is so heavenly 🐨

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but when i fully heal part of childish me wants to tell you

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All it takes is her raising her voice or hand-🐚

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what is, purple?

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and i'd like for you to be proud of me

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The one I suggested, purple? -🐼

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The song green suggested🐨

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and i'd like for us to talk again, like civilised adults

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Ohhh Ikr

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I fall asleep to it

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ADDED TO MY PLAYLIST🐨

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because at the time i was childish and couldnt handle my emotions

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but now i understand

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