i want to go so bad , but my parents are mentally torturing me

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the job i did i hated it so much i lie and say im not getting orders

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I-I definitely can't do that purple

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When I was really sick once I asked my mum to wash my back for me

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then my cat went ahead and died

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I felt so fucking stupid

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my friends are making fun of me for not coming

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my pc got destroyed bc of a thunderstrike and the line was connected

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Like I was a kid again

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and posting about their hangout

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i feel jealous

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we didnt have anything to stop it

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And I lowkey could've sobbed

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Red, try to have a serious talk with your parents about what you have achieved to convince them to let you go out.

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Well, could've; I did

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what should i do

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yesterday i cried

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for like the first time in 2 months

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I went to bed that night and I cried like a bitch

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oh, just don't go, it's okay

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my sister called me today too and when i fucked up my ramen

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Because I just want to go back to a time when I had that feeling

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oh, just cry, it's okay

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I want to isolate that feeling and riddle myself with it

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it'd be so much easier

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if i were dead

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Because it's not ths thought kf wanting to go back to that feeling

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green,i understand how you feel,haha,i am a person who always carries that thought in my mind:))))))))

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Because I didn't have that feeling as a child

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I can't go back

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Because it never existed

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i hate myself more than anyone in the world

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purple, life is better if you think more positively

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I grieve a childhood I never experienced

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I had a time when I thought very negatively.

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yeah because ill stop being dirt broke if i start thinking positively

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And I think that hurts me more than grieving what I've really lost

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i have no future

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no one expects anything of me

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but then after i was a little more positive, i found everything was fine, purple

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