damn

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.

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emi igtg it seems

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ive completely abandoned all my responsibilities so i can sit alone in my room to smoke weed or drink to pass the time

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i h8 collage.

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Is it cool if i get some stuff out here?

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byee y'all tc <3

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ik i'm addicted

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but i can't stop it

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byeeee celll lov yaaa

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but you need determination for it

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ilyt!

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?

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and im fucking miserable, its like, when i vent about it it feels like i ust have sm pity for myself

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<33333

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i dont pity myself but i do hate myself soooo much and i tried to fake it till i made it but ive always been so innately insecure in my sense of self

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like who the fuck am i

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Im just afraid ill never get to do soemthjng i really need in life

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seriously idk how to fix myself

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or if i even can anymore

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you know its bad when your therapist and two of your friends need to tell you youre so emotionally unavailable they dont know what the fuck is wrong with you

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im throwing away my future because im fucking wallowing in my sadness

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i'm 15, I shouldn't immediately start doing that stuff before i fully regain consciousness when waking up

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or even at all

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three weeks left until i graduate and all my grades have slipped

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I just.. desperatly need surgery

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like im fucked

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i dont want to be stuck in learnt helplessness but im so done, i feel so done

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i haven't had friends in 2 years

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never dated

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my problems are my own, and theyre ones i can fix, but i dont want to because theyre solutions to OTHER PROBLEMS and then they multiply into bigger and bigger issues

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like for fucks sake i feel suffocated by myself

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what's gonna happen if i start dating eventually and i end waking up in the middle of the night doing that stuff to myself

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i'm sure i'd be left on the spot

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i'm messed up

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blue youre 15, dont feel guilty abt looking up r34 and not having dated, youre not messed up

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youre 15, your brain is hotwired with hormones and sex its literally normal

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i'm constantly doing it though

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