ah that it's not sickness if you feel good during this right?

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How can it be sickness if it feels amazing

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no, you can feel good in sickness

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if you're better during it then you're not sick

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when I'm """"""well"""""" and I take medication I don't feel as good as I do now

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But what if it's just you suppressing the pain, and trying to feel amazing while youre breaking from the inside little by little

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I feel more dumb, I need to sleep and eat and all of these things

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ok, things I learned about sex from my Parents: porn is bad, girls mature faster than you but also don't want anything to do with it, you're not gay, looking at woman and thinking about sex is a terri

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I'm not breaking anything

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I'm just wonderful I don't need the same things other people do

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ohh

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but people just talk to me like I am crazy lol when I know more than the

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*them

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like I could go without eat or sleep if I wanted, you can't say this about most people

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why do you take medicine if you're not sick?

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because the doctors want to stuff their fucking pockets lol that's why

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and they're scared of what I'll say bc I can see truth better

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without sleep and eating is bad

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for most people but not when I'm like this

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I've gone without sleep for while but I still feel fantastic right?

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like what

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ohh

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like how I am right now and of meds

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*off

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thats great then

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see it's wonderful

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I can create things and do all sorts of things

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im off my meds too and i feel good too

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I swear on fucking everything I could do it right now and run into traffic and not one car could hit me

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it genuinely couldn't I'm telling you this

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woah dont do that

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I could is thing I would be okay

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still even if they wouldnt hit you, dont try that

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I could is point

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ohh

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but see if I tell that to someone they hand me my lithium and shoot me up with benzos

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no gracias is my point I rather feel everything than be numb to things

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thats sad, intrusive thoughts are very common, not everything needs to be medicated

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it's more than intrusive thoughts of course and I know this

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I don't get "urge" to run in traffic for fun

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