sorry

72731 - 

no need to apologize.-R0tt3n

69498 - 

I miss smoking.

72766 - 

oh

72731 - 

Yeah. I would definitely get another opinion or two at major hospitals

72749 - 

This was that opinion unfortunately

72764 - 

the fourth opinion and really final hope for this

72764 - 

Most people are born normal

72766 - 

There are hospitals specific to spinal injuries and they're coming up with new things all of the time

72749 - 

I'm aware I've spent the last month and a half in and out of those kinds of hospitals

72764 - 

I was born wrong, im just inherently wrong. I am evil i need to rid the world of myself

72766 - 

Don't give up though.

72749 - 

It would be better for me to accept it I think

72764 - 

things happen for a reason and I need to find some kind of meaning in it all

72764 - 

In some ways, yes.

72749 - 

It's just gonna hurt me to continue to wait for something that won't happen

72764 - 

If offered PT, do it, just in case a new procedure comes through

72749 - 

Yeah I do PT and OT

72764 - 

Very good!

72749 - 

Sometimes i wish i was normal. People just conversate without thinking about it

72766 - 

Im trying to be normal but its like impossible

72766 - 

There really is no "normal"

72749 - 

Today isn't the right day for me

72766 - 

There is kind of

72766 - 

I just feel like I'm losing the meanings to things

72764 - 

I don't want to lose my optimism or faith

72764 - 

That part is hard

72749 - 

I need to have faith in other things though

72764 - 

I crave affection and love but every friendship i have i feel wrong

72766 - 

wrong because?

72749 - 

I don't know what to spend my time doing

72764 - 

I feel undeserving so i leave people

72766 - 

Learning new things cyan

72749 - 

There's others out there that feel just like you, blue

72749 - 

I've been trying but it's pulling meaning from the things I do that's hard now

72764 - 

Focus on healing, of course.

72749 - 

yeah

72764 - 

Physically and mentally

72749 - 

I've been trying it's just not easy

72764 - 

I know

72749 -