Im only 14 and been doing this shit since i was 7, i feel like such a gross and horrible person

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i tried to work and i just get sick over and over, and people get angry

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i miss being gifted and praised instead of being treated like shit every waking fucking moment.

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something is wrong with me whether its in my head or physical i dont really care at this point

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i need help

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i miss my old friends who was my world back then.

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i miss how i was, so pure, so sweet, so innocent.

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i miss being happy.

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i miss how i could easily love everyone.

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i miss them.

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i miss them a lot.

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i wish i could actually find someone who loves me for me

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i guess i should get crushed a bit more before i finally die

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why not

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i wish i could meet them, reconnect.

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i wish that this world wasn't a fucked up place.

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have u guys seen a therapist

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i wish every one of them hoes who hurt me without even realizing it acknowledges their mistake.

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several

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for a long time

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i was supposed to have one. my parents never let me meet them.

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did it not help at all?

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i cant say it did

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they didnt offer me anythig i feel i wasnt aware of and working towards

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u can go on a free online therapist service one (green) if u want

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i can't. my parents don't want me to be on there. -karoshi

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they don't want me talking to 988 or here either.

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why not ur parents r there to help u yk

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there part of the cause, and they don't even realize that they're hurting me.

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talk to them

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i surrender

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tell them

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i already made my mom and dad cry.

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how

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by venting, the tiniest damn bit,

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cant u vent to other people yk

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like friends

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no. they vent to me.

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and plus, they don't know how.

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do you guys know the best places to sh? no call for help, gen question -e

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