my parents are also gatekeeping me and warning me from telling the counsellor anything. they are also using passive-aggressive sarcasm like "oh great".

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im so bored and tired

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i dont have an identity anymore

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I rlly js wanna kms

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ive been having homicidal thoughts. i cant sleep anymore due to it as well.

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sleep token>>> - athena

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now that I'm back with an old friend. it doesn't feel the same? it's just a bit weird or just meh.-R0tt3n

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I ahve suicidal thoughts

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i hate my mother so much. she is so clumsy just like my dad.

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im so bored i wanna google meet w sum1 so badly - athena

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how am i gonna have ed thoughts but not actually do anything abt them. like. its just self loathing there's no action being taken 💀💀be so ffr

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but good thing I don't feel very deeply about them anymore. not causing me to have more mental problems.-R0tt3n

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failure parents. substance abusers. alcoholics. boring. politically obsessed. constant excuses about not being able to afford somethings that my SIBLINGS have.

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i hate it

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I just hope that doesn't change. if it does than I'm fucked.-R0tt3n

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then*-R0tt3n

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like who wnna watch me draw and shit - athena

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you draw?!-R0tt3n

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i sleep with my lights on. i think my parents did something to me when i was younger and i forgot. i remember sleeping on my own when i was younger, quiet, lights off, all fine. all changed.

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so many talented people-R0tt3n

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yupp - athena

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i thought you've seen me draw b4 - athena

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i slept with my mother alot when i was younger all of a sudden until 13. thats a-long time. always vigilant. i am assuming this was because the drunken arguments my parents had during my childhood

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you should make a social media account about drawing and about writing athena.-R0tt3n

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nope lol.-R0tt3n

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I've never did google meets-R0tt3n

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i can sleep on my own now (started doing it since 1-2 years ago), but just know that i slept on my own at the start of my life before "that thing" happened.

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shii wanna watch me draw then lmao - athena

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or done*-R0tt3n

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rn I'm at school lmao-R0tt3n

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same lmao - athena

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LMFAO-R0tt3n

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so fucking hilarious when i know that my dad has had times of discipling me by holding me down in bed with his hand suffocating my neck with my family watching laughing at me and calling me a pussy

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disciplining*

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im so sick of my family. they all had everything better than me. no allergies. no insomnia. no small overly compact claustrophobic room. disgustingly unfair, inexcusable-- always say they cant afford

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im boreddd - athena

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i dont understand. they bought the house im living in around 17 years ago. 8 digits in cash. and they struggle to afford a new house today. its been ages. jnust why.'

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just why.

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i wanna hit beans but i also dont wanna hit beans

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my parents spend alot on vapes and alcohol

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