i have a camera that doesnt work

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but whyy r u always a part of my supposedly plans in life

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i dont even have the motivation to fix it because i dont go outside anymore to take photos of anything

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fuck why cant my brain just accept that ur engaged!!!!!

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ur fucking engaged AND ILL ALWAYS BE UR little sister figure!!!

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i feel like every time i meet someone i have to adhere to their interests

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because i have nothing

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like this girl i met was really into motorbikes so i tried starting a conversation about that but that went to shit

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because i dont know shit about motorbikes

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and IDK PROBABLY u just got confused with that's why we had a moment and u said i love u

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i was just trying to be nice

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idfk what i did wrong

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and idk fucking talk abt something unusual for friends

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fuckin hell i hate being a girl with a babyface sometimes

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fuck being ur little sister figure bro

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ive been waking up with so much dread

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i hate everything about my life right now

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nothings right

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brooo u were my crush ever since i was 16

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and now im an adult

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i haven't changed and ur engaged

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fuck what if ur here

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see IM FUCKIN PARANOID

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ughhhhhhhh

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i can try and get into piano again but im afraid i wont be able to focus

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whatever man bue

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i cant focus at school anymore

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byeeee

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im not even depressed like how i used to be

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i dont want to kill myself anymore and i take care of myself

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why am i still like this

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i dont even know what to base it off of because ive never had a normal life

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i wasnt happy as a kid im not happy now

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but im supposed to be becoming happy

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im on good medication and i see a doctor monthly

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i sleep i shower i go on walks sometimes

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i feel like i just wanna adopt a mid aged dog that i can take on walks

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She starts arguments out of no where and makes me feel like im in the wrong

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but my mum wouldnt let me

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and we are also shit poor

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