i need to get a job and i need to face the world

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i need to focus on school again man

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if this bitch just sold the house THEN to that motherfucker at least i will be swimming in money now xd

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my family isnt rich i cant live off my mother

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she cant afford that

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who gives a fuck what the buyer wanted to do with the house after buying it xd

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my other siblings have jobs

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i just want the money xd

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whyd my dad have to target me

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this fucker of a father all he do is retarding and ruining my life xd

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i wish he just went through with it and killed himself so i could have closure

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but he continues living

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and guilt tripping me

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and my little brother

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for his own problems

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feigning suicide and addiction

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everything either gets retarded or slowed down for NO FUCKING REASON xd

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and im SICK OF THIS xd

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well i know it affects him i just cant deal with it

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nobody can

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he made it my problem

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there was NO FUCKING BUYER until that bitch and i wanted to punch my father for turning that buyer away xd

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i was a kid and i took care of him

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even after he hurt me

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i just want this bitch to SELL this motherfucking house i hate this fucking place xd

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he was soo fucking dependant on me

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i was like 10 when he would get into my bed at night to hold me drunk

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i could never sleep when he did it

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sell it and fucking give me my share like thats all i give a fuck about xd

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it was a power thing i think

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it was gross

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at this point i barely have energy for anything and im just fucking pissed at everything xd

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he smelt and his touch felt dirty

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he tainted me

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and i fucking miss my car xd

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it was my first car xd

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i wish i still had the bruises on my wrists to prove it

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