ventscape is so peaceful and a good venting space without those shits

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if im autistic theres all of these new chances

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afk

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possible outcomes

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I fucking dont deserve empathy

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because im so awkward

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eccentric

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will that ever change??

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i cant handle meeting new people

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i dont know how long enough is normal to look people in the eye for

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and i dont know how to do small talk

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i dont know when im supposed to speak

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i dont know

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Im too slow to notice my hypocrisy

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I hate my fucking narcissism

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i feel like i need to hurt myself

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I hate my need for attention

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I wish I could just be content

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im constantly faking things

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i mean its not like i like lying to people i never lie

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but theres invisible standards people hold up to in social settings

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that everybody is just supposed to know already??

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so i look to other people to see what to do

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but everybodys fucking different

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but they dont get weird looks

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Im Eddie Vsn Halen!!!

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they dont get outcasted

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Nmmmmmmhhhjnmmeeehhh Wahhhh Zzzzzttzzx

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or described as different

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what the fuck am i doing wrong

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is it actually just autism

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will i actually just be alone forever

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id honestly rather die

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Imo blue you are not performing enough balls-to-the-wall guitar solos

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im a woman i cant live on my own safely

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Not sure if it makes you feel better but i really get how that feels

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and i never have the energy to do things without my mum

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Blue

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im becoming an adult and theres all these new standards i have to follow

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i have to get a job i have to keep up with school

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