I feel exactly like I did years ago.

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real shit cyan

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anyway i gotta dip yall

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take care an stay safe out therr

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And if it's not self-harm now, it feels like I'm only delaying the inevitable.

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as a kid i was considered eccentric

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you too

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Which feels even worse.

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it was off putting but endearing

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now its just weird

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i was supposed to grow out of it

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but i just became depressed

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Because, if it's inevitable why shouldn't I just go through it now? Rather than suffer in wait.

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with ocd

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That's a bad way to think about that. And I know it too.

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and agoraphobia

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so ive lost touch with the world

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my room is my world

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I need time alone. Desperately.

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But I'm also so afraid.

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the problem is nobody comes into my room!

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The moment I'm alone I know I'll do it.

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so i have no friends

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and no life

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They'll leave, for hours.

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etc im a loser

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And I'll take the same screwdriver and a different sharpener.

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Because I was supposed to be done.

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The sharpener is gone. But I'll use another.

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I'll do it higher up this time. Because I'm supposed to be in a good place.

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I wear shorts now. I have a new image now. I have to keep that up.

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It's such a small thing.

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i need advice

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but i cant because im only supposed to be awkward now not awkward and depressed

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I want to find friendship and love one day, but I hate people too much for that to happen

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how do normal people cope

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I've been rejected and ignored for most of my life and I don't feel the need to care about what anyone thinks anymore tbh

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How can I love anyone if I just can't stand everyone?

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Idk really

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I am permanently pissed off

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