i think im autistic or something

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i meet people and all i can think about is how im probably being really off putting and how ugly i look

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so i cant really hold a conversation

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i fr thought all indians would be gone if i came back in a few hours and yellow is still here being a pedo and sexting

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damn cyan

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its not like i was properly bullied as a kid either

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id honestly tlk to ya

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it was passive i stopped going to school and it didnt matter anymore

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oh, where is everyone?

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i was just weird ive always been weird

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i dont know

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relatable tbh

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ive never really known how to be like other people

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I've been thinking about self-harming again.

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And, it's not something I really want to do.

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i dress differently i talk differently i like different things

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It never was.

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i never really connect to people

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But it's feeling like the only thing I can resort to now.

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I feel exactly like I did years ago.

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real shit cyan

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anyway i gotta dip yall

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take care an stay safe out therr

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And if it's not self-harm now, it feels like I'm only delaying the inevitable.

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as a kid i was considered eccentric

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you too

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Which feels even worse.

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it was off putting but endearing

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now its just weird

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i was supposed to grow out of it

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but i just became depressed

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Because, if it's inevitable why shouldn't I just go through it now? Rather than suffer in wait.

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with ocd

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That's a bad way to think about that. And I know it too.

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and agoraphobia

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so ive lost touch with the world

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my room is my world

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I need time alone. Desperately.

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But I'm also so afraid.

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the problem is nobody comes into my room!

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