i hope i die in my sleep tonight xd

why the fuck bother about something thats already ruined xd

everythins just too broken and fucked up to care about xd

idgaf about anything xd

no on would know xd

im pretty sure if i kill myself for at least three to four days my dead body will stay where it is xd

no one would know or come looking xd

maybe for a few days if i die in this house my dead body will be at peace xd

i wish i have it in me to just do me the favor of freeing me xd

because im tired of bullshit xd

i wish i just died xd

nothing fills everything drains xd

nothing fills xd

because idk how to describe it xd

im tired i can type over and over but i cant never write how i feel xd

it just doesnt exist xd

was there ever a single fucking "good" xd

everything xd

everything thrown at me in my life was shit xd

im stressed the fuck out all the time xd

its eating away my sanity xd

im so fucking depressed idk how to put it into words xd

decades of emotional and psychological abuse and im fucking tired xd

suffering as in mental abuse xd

everything in my life was just suffering and shit and im tired xd

nothing brings anything xd

and i wanna die so fucking bad xd

they will have to break the doors open to get in xd

if i die in this pathetic death house no one would find my dead body for a few days xd

i wanna kill myself every night xd

3:10am in the morning xd

its like im in some tunnel with no end xd

im tired of it all and im tired of all the shit xd

im tired of this xd

every fucking night xd

theres rope in the backyard i see it out of my window and think ngl xd

everythings better off fucking dead xd

everythings bullshit and im tired xd

nothing ever does xd

and you think tf for xd