Yeah blue, I really liked the fading out, really showing how our own existence is like a void, naturally unfeeling and unyielding to the machination that is life and nature.

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Anyway, I JUST got done, about 3 hours ago, job searching. I just stopped at 25 and spent like 5 hours doing said exercise in mental abuse. Figured that was enough.

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It's really sad that a decade ago, when I was able to stop job searching because out of 3,200 resumes sent through two job search engines through TWO YEARS I only got 32 interviews that landed nowhere

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And those jobs were out of the city, even state using public transportation which if anyone knows, city transit is as untrustworthy as a thief with money.

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But because homelessness is creeping up and unemployment is taking its sweet time compared to the simplicity of what I sent them, I have no choice but to destroy my sanity every Sunday.

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I CANNOT F***ING WAIT to not have to job search for even the most mundane of jobs I'd be uncomfortable with! I mean, even DISHWASHERS are being snapped up like it's a winning lottery ticket!

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I'm taking some time to detox. Play a cell phone free with ads video game, then study what I've lost from college with a website that helps with re learning, then go to bed at night to not even see

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Employers even respond to my applications, especially those I had to spend an HOUR OR SO on just on their own individual site, or have Indeed lie and say after 4 days my resume wasn't chosen when it

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Was done THAT SAME INSTANT!!! Not even a minute passing and I found that out when I had to go into my job status to see which job I applied to, and I spent close to an hour on both applying.

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Or, if they don't get back, just loads of rejections. Percentages I've noticed are this: 85-90%, ignored/ghosted. Didn't even reject or do an interview. 5-8% rejection, rest interview...

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...That I don't get the job for because I didn't look or speak perfect or they did in my view illegal questioning for something not even RELATED to the job. So I just wanted to save my sanity now.

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