She cried last time & kept asking me why and i simply couldnt answer

i appreciate you a lot. Its like I want to relapse so badly but then I dont want to face the concequences and hurt my mom again.

My Mom goes through them

If i were to tell crisis, and my therapist

Im just scared if i do i will get admitted. Thats the only thing thats been keeping me from not telling them the truth

Ive literally tried to text crisis too but they never respond

like a month

I have one on right now & it doesnt help.

I know it does. But its literally the only way I can stop stress.

I cant wait for winter so i can relapse