in this house xd

this is passive suicide my mother though actually committed suicide by hanging 11 years ago xd

it is freedom from all the suffering :p xd

it would because death = freedom and that shit is eternal xd

it would free me though xd

i wish i could just lose my memory and wake up somewhere nautical miles far away from here xd

wtf man this is so depressing xd

i just want a clean slate xd

being born was the worst fucking thing xd

:p xd

my parents never shouldve wanted kids man they ruined my life xd

im sorry for myself xd

just being sucks xd

i dont wanna go on ffs this is the most tiring thing ever xd

and im tired xd

everythings so fucking empty and im so detached and its so confusing xd

so blank and empty xd

idefk how im even connected to any of this shit im so out of it xd

its so weird my "father" is my father and im connected to the people i interact with because im so dissociated xd

because i dont wanna put up with this shit xd

well idgaf it keeps crossing my mind i want nothing at all so maybe i should just fucking kill myself xd

like quiet i like quiet but quiet in some unsettling way xd

i be walking around this house its so jesus christ dead xd

just isolating and staying in my room helps xd

im so motherfucking depressed and hardly keeping me together xd

fuck my "father" fuck these people and fuck everything xd

yeah im taking my inheritance money and leaving all this shit xd

now this is the last bit i just have to sell this xd

past couple of months were hell xd

i hope all those fuckbags die xd

i did everything i had to do to fix my "fathers" fucking mess taking shit and disrespect from everyone and tolerating everything xd

i did everything and this suck ass i just need a buyer to dump the estate on get my money and gtfo xd

im gonna kill myself if i have to deal with more of this shit xd

he is now in rehab and hopefully they wont sent that motherfucker back here xd

because i wanna leave and i have to sell it because my "father" fucked up xd

nah my inheritance xd

got them all chopped down xd

there were trees all over the place xd

well its a 39.4 perch yard man xd

gotta keep it looking good so whoever fuck wanna buy it would buy it :p xd