i dont want to stay here xd

this place is quiet even if im inside the house its like theres no one here xd

im always alone at home theres no one left there except for me xd

its so quiet here in this house xd

i just gave me a fucking anxiety attack xd

nothings going on xd

im just gonna drink some water xd

who tf wouldnt freak out my mind is always freaking me out xd

no im freaking myself out xd

maybe im tired or having fuck am i having an anxiety attack xd

maybe im losing my fucking mind xd

i wish i could just vaporize xd

im so empty to the point im confused why i even have a body xd

i can try to talk but idk how to say it and dont think anyone would understand xd

naturally human body shouldve been designed with a kill switch or some shit if that existed this wouldnt be such a pain xd

apathetic and dead so empty i mean what is there to be anyway xd

cant even force myself to care xd

i have no interest in anything xd

this is some slow burning hell xd

28 years that feels like a motherfucking 100 years xd

and im confused as fuck so out of place what the fuck am i doing in existence xd

honestly i give zero fucks about anything xd

i cant do this anymore xd

i see nothing that has any actual value ngl xd

what is there to "want" in this world xd

what the fuck am i supposed to do xd

nothing makes sense xd

existing for the sake of existing is the most suffocating thing ever xd

im so fucking trapped in whatever this is and its suffocating xd

why werent the bodies naturally designed with a switch off button so we can voluntarily die if we dont wanna exist xd

such a mess xd

to each xd

illusion and a delusion xd

everythings an illusion xd

what is the point of anything really xd

more emptiness over the objective emptiness xd

it just brings nothing onto the table xd

why is society built the way it is so broken imperfect fucked up full of shit xd

i feel like im out of the grid xd

whats the point of all their wants xd