of course im the problem, not the abuser - cheek squisher

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and all i remember is my dad screaming when he got to the scene - sal

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i dont remember anything else from the scene - sal

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no like the thinf that i hate

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is that people did not help

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not even the neighbors

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28 years is too much and too long xd

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i was informed once i was awake at the hospital my dad was being aggressive and pulled a weapon on the officers at the scene and well i bet you can guess what happened - sal

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i dont even fucking wanna be here xd

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exist for the sake of existing xd

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because i dont really have much of a choice xd

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my grandma is narcissistic and she screamed at my mom when she was in a coma after it

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did i gaslight myself into thinking im trans - August

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it doesent get better

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blaming her for it happening

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it never does xd

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i just wanna be alone xd

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i fucking hate people like that coral - sal

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away from everything because im tired of bullshit xd

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im very sorry for my mom cause she grew uo w her

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like i live my grandma shes so sweet to us

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im drained the fuck for years like its like i never fill xd

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Im like this 👌 close to realizing im trans and im concious that im in denial and yet im still in denial somehow - August

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but she clearly has personality disorders n lowkey neglected her and her brother their whole chilshood

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my brother has cptsd from it because he saw my dad die - sal

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if only sleep lasted forever

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if only i just fucking die xd

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i also have cptsd!

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so i can be free forever xd

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he doesnt remember the crash he just remembers that part - sal

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i dont have cptsd, just severe ptsd - sal

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ion even remember any part

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its like im dragging my own body around for the sake of taking it around xd

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lmao

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still as bad

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whats cptsd - mello

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post traumatic stress disorder

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How do I actually admit to myself that I am trans - August

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complex post traumatic stress xd

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with like other symptoms

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