i was in such denial about the pregancy its actually wild. i lost my period, had early symptoms, and eventually the worst period i ever had - ashie

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volleyball it'd affect - r

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I feel like specific ones can also give the illusion of enhancing endurance though - Liam

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and at the same time i was beint sexualized by a much older man irl - ashie

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yeah man i'm good - r

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not abt to go to drugs - r

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No I’m not trynna convince you to do them - Liam

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i still have ss of some of his texts - ashie

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Never got pregnant, only thing i got left eith is s really hard dissociation - Nana

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yea - r

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i mean my dad would be pissed if i did - r

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he reallllly wants me to have a future in sports - r

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it haunts me everyday. sometimes when i wake up im immediately paralyzed in bed. - ashie

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that could ruin it - r

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I understand - Liam

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Used to have s lot of really gorey nightmares sbout the act itself, then sleep paralysis - Nana

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Petosman

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im so fucking mad at myself gng i can't play at all this season - r

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this is very embarrassing but ig its anon but sometimes im literally so scared and paralyzed i end up pissing myself. it doest happen alot. an its ususlly not a lot that comes out - ashie

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zero regular season hockey zero regular season volleyball - r

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i'm so fucking mad - r

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I think thats normal - Nana

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its awful out in public though. ive had it a few times out and about - ashie

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Gonna head out - Liam

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Later - Liam

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be safe liam - r

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well i always had problems but the fact its still a thing is awful - ashie

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Bye liam - Soda

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bye bye - ashie

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Bayy - Nana

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its just i feel this disconnect with people now - ashie

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Im in deep fesr of the future - Nana

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What's on your mind? - r

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sorry i was jut writing the thing - r

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cause it goes from white to gray when you do that - r

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For that same reason, i do not know how to connect, but thats because of the autism - Nana

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i am in so much fucking pain right now gng - r

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i think the fact i was raped so much is a huge turn off for guys - ashie

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ive asked some guys abt it - ashie

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