Bye liam - Soda

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bye bye - ashie

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its just i feel this disconnect with people now - ashie

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What's on your mind? - r

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sorry i was jut writing the thing - r

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cause it goes from white to gray when you do that - r

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i am in so much fucking pain right now gng - r

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i think the fact i was raped so much is a huge turn off for guys - ashie

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ive asked some guys abt it - ashie

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i'm a guy nd i don't think so - r

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and theyre always ok with a small amount - ashie

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but like most my childhood - ashie

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yeah it's not about your past trauma it's about connection and stuff - r

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but i still think its gross idk - ashie

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i don't know about other guys but if i felt connected to someone and then learned she went through all that i'd still love her the same - r

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the fact it was so many. ive had a dog in me. i had a diagnosed schizophrenic guys baby in me at just fucking 15. i was literally hospitalized at one point. i feel like how "used up" i am is abit disg - ashie

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i think i will have to lie to people perhaps - ashie

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the whole situation is gross - ashie

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i think you could just not tell people about it and then later if you feel like there's a real connection between you and them then there's enoguh trust to maybe let them in - r

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ive never had actual sex before. im just scared im going to freak out and if they dont know ill upset them - ashie

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it's okay to tell someone you're not ready for sex - r

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if that someone loves you they won't get mad - r

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sex is super scary but i feel like im missng out on this amazing thing that every mammal ever does and im just to broken - ashie

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yeah i'm kinda scared of sex gng - r

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I wish i could be something easier for people to understand - Soda

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i want to have sex. it sounds nice. well ig i want to make love, not just have sex - ashie

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I hate wishing for so much - Soda

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i once had someone tell me ik to hookup with someone to get over my past - ashie

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soda i've been seeing your messages and i promise you everyone has a person meant for them - r

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its sill asf but sometimes i wonder if theyre right - ashie

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U are awesome r thank you - Soda

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