I'm a stepping stone for everyone else. And I will be until the day I die.

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That's my purpose, to help the people that matter

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cassie - THEODORE

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if ayaw mo makipag usap fine - THEODORE

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The people that will actually go on to make a difference in this world and enjoy themselves. At least I could make them a little happier, I suppose. In the end I guess how I feel doesn't matter.

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Why would how I feel matter. I'm just me. It's always just been me.

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hope u succed - THEODORE

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There is no hope.

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i mean in ur plan - THEODORE

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To die? thank you

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i want to kill myself too thats why i know that feeling - THEODORE

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Though it's less of a plan and more of an inevitablility, either people stop caring or I'm going to go ahead and do it anyway because I cannot do this anymore

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I hate myself so much

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i know - THEODORE

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I read back the things I type and realize how dumb and unlikeable I am. How much I would hate to meet someone like me. I have no idea how people ever put up with me

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actually - THEODORE

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i like ur personality - THEODORE

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But whatever. That's just how I feel, how I feel has never been important to anyone.

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i thought im the only one - THEODORE

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thats why i wanna talk u in private before u ended - THEODORE

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itr - THEODORE

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People only care if how I feel ends up affecting something in a way they notice. Only care if I can't make them as happy because I'm a little down.

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dude - THEODORE

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i know that feeling - THEODORE

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It's always about how everyone else feels. That's all my life has ever been about, all it ever will be about, as long as I'm breathing.

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im gonna die anytime too - THEODORE

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if u dont wanna talk to me in private fine - THEODORE

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i just to tell something - THEODORE

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but im not trying to encouragee u - THEODORE

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I wonder how I would do it, when the time comes

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i gotta go - THEODORE

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Maybe Id drive somewhere with a bridge, and jump. I have plenty of places I can drive to.

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ur not able to talk so.. - THEODORE

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I feel worthless

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Guns have never been appealing to me, too much mess. Pills are not guaranteed to work. Honestly height feels like the best way.

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I feel like I'll never achieve any of my dreams

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how abt stabbing ur self - THEODORE

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But whatever. I guess I should journal this out rather than writing here, I'm just bothering everyone else now. I'm sorry. I'll be going.

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ok - THEODORE

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My life sucks

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