I can't wait until the day everyone discards me, realizes im worthless, and I can finally stop pretending to enjoy life

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hiii - Emi

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i thought ur trying - THEODORE

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ikr!! i haven't been on here for months and i come back and see this update - Emi

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real im just going thru everything rn 😭😭

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I can take my exit. I won't have to struggle anymore. Finally, I'll know peace, for the first time. And it'll be when I'm six feet under

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Ok i got my friend on a phons call and shes back at her condo super upset but shes safer than at a random place alone with stranger

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Some days I wish I could just cry forever and never stop crying

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blueee - THEODORE

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talk to me - THEODORE

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But the well runs empty. I can't cry more

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There's nothing to talk about

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on my insta plssss - THEODORE

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ts actually so cool tho wow - nisa

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just talk to me and then u can kill ur self - THEODORE

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I'm not going to kill myself anytime soon.

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I have a family that would mourn me

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just plss to me - THEODORE

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whats ur insta - THEODORE

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It just sucks to live life for everyone else. To keep everyone else from grieving

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cassie.... - THEODORE

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I lift up the people that matter and they'll use my lift to leave me behind some day. And when they do, I'll finally be able to end it, without hurting anyone, with no one grieving.

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That's my ticket out of suffering. Because the dreams I have, the things I really want to do, that would make me enjoy life, I'm not capable of achieving. Never will be.

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I'm a stepping stone for everyone else. And I will be until the day I die.

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That's my purpose, to help the people that matter

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cassie - THEODORE

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if ayaw mo makipag usap fine - THEODORE

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The people that will actually go on to make a difference in this world and enjoy themselves. At least I could make them a little happier, I suppose. In the end I guess how I feel doesn't matter.

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Why would how I feel matter. I'm just me. It's always just been me.

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hope u succed - THEODORE

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There is no hope.

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i mean in ur plan - THEODORE

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To die? thank you

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i want to kill myself too thats why i know that feeling - THEODORE

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Though it's less of a plan and more of an inevitablility, either people stop caring or I'm going to go ahead and do it anyway because I cannot do this anymore

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