But I dont have a reason myself. I dont enjoy living, I've never enjoyed it. Everything feels like stress, a struggle, and for what? So that someone else I know can be happy?

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shit - THEODORE

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It sucks, being so worthless, having dreams you know you can never achieve, and having to go on anyway. Because you'd be selfish to leave. Because living is the nice thing to do, for everyone else

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Everyone seems to have SOMEONE besides me

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hey blue - THEODORE

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When do I get happiness? When do I get to experience the things I want, get to live the life I want? Never. It's never going to happen. So I just live for other people, every day, every second

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blue - THEODORE

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It's actually torture. I can't keep doing this.

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i think i know u - THEODORE

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I dont know how to comfort you ugh kailinit.. idk.. I just layed.. some boundaries for myself since I get hurt too,.

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I just want them to stop caring so I can end it

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Anyway gootta do stuff blueee

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phewww

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You don't know me

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i know - THEODORE

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we talk before - THEODORE

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I'm someone else.

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I've never met anyone with your name

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its not my name - THEODORE

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I can't wait until the day everyone discards me, realizes im worthless, and I can finally stop pretending to enjoy life

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hiii - Emi

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i thought ur trying - THEODORE

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ikr!! i haven't been on here for months and i come back and see this update - Emi

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I can take my exit. I won't have to struggle anymore. Finally, I'll know peace, for the first time. And it'll be when I'm six feet under

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Ok i got my friend on a phons call and shes back at her condo super upset but shes safer than at a random place alone with stranger

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Some days I wish I could just cry forever and never stop crying

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?

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blueee - THEODORE

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talk to me - THEODORE

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But the well runs empty. I can't cry more

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???

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There's nothing to talk about

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on my insta plssss - THEODORE

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just talk to me and then u can kill ur self - THEODORE

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I'm not going to kill myself anytime soon.

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I have a family that would mourn me

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