imagine knowing how fucked you are and still doing bad habits?

idk man it makes me hate myself tbh

Cnc

like chc?

Not the real versuon just re inacted

I wish i felt that way, my response was wanting it more?

that part of it, have a rape kink, i throw up everytime its reinactive

the feeling of being loved

i love sex

i want to die only because i dont want to go through this anymote

im scared

man

i know the men i show my body too dony really like me but i do it anyways

its messed up i know its messed up and i still do it

Im still in the mindset tho, its messed up

i mean i was online groomed

itd feel like me

someone to love me, yk even if its my body

i want that tho tbh

better to love my body then llve nothing of me yk

but i dont get paid tbh i just do it for the affection,

i know its wrobg but it still helps thats all yhat matters

same soto, tbh, showing off my body makes me feel loved

I think that all the time

i mean, is all of this happening because i dont belive in god?

many people will

but if god is real ill go to hell

isnt*

i hope he isny

but yeah, college starts august 15, i want to pick august 10th but idk

bye cyan

so tbh

i feel like i wont succeed, i mean, i cant even get financial aid because my mom dosent care

but picking that day seems harder then it looks, i want to commit before i start college

yk i heard many people come to peace when they pick the day

ig i still am a bit scared, its hard to pick when ill do it yk

I hope hell isnt real

im tired of feeling like itll never get better yk, i just hope when i do commit i dont go to hell

its something that sticks with you, like everything else, for me atleast

touched again and again and i can never forget it