guys i gotta go but stay safe and take care of yourself, get help asap if youre getting worse love yall<3 - lamb

im scared of gaining weight too actually since my childhood evan, i even avoided ppl who were too thick for my personal preference.. i was a bad child - lamb

oh im so sorry for that emi - lamb

hell nah, im getting worse but wbu emi? - lamb

hi emi - lamb

get the help you need - lamb

evan, you need to get better. talk to anyone, even if its just a random person on the street you dont know - lamb

bye misty, stay strong - lamb

have you told anyone irl red? - lamb

i cant. my mind is stopping me sy - lamb

i think i actually need professional help, but i cant seem to text my therapist and make an appointment - lamb

thanks blueberry, ill give one back - lamb

i think my ed is coming back but worse than before - lamb

okay blueberry

idk, i made plans in my diary when i was 10 to kill my own dad

guys, is it normal to have thoughts to kill people around you? and making plans in your head and creating scenerios??

okay

omg are you okay now misty?

bye white

paper isnt the same

o damn

me too

i started sh when i was 8. got worse when i was 11. even worse when i got 13.. and now, its just gets worse and worse.

my coping mechanism is sh and not eating to have smth i can control. nail biting when i feel anxious.

i cnat get help. its not that easy

i just dont know what i should do

even if it might put me into serious danger..

i wanna get as bad as possible for people to notice themselves how i actually feel

because i feel like i dont deserve it

i need help but i wont ever accept or ask for it

im getting worse and worse every day and im loosing apetite. im scared itll turn into an actual serious ed..

hello